This was and is still my most favorite Ed Sheeran song (next to Tenerife Sea), even before it was featured on the Me Before You official soundtrack.
I actually didn’t watch the movie when it came out, but I have read its first few chapters. Last year when it hit the cinemas, and found out that this song was one of those that were included on the soundtrack, I wasn’t really surprised at all. Photograph is heart-wrenching and vividly written in a beautiful way, just like Me Before You as a novel.
But when I watched the movie a few days ago, then Photograph started to play while Lou was on her way to Will to be with him on his final moments in Switzerland, that was when the tears I’ve been holding back all throughout the movie started to fall.
Loving can hurt
Loving can hurt sometimes
But it’s the only thing that I know
It was the perfect song for someone like Lou who has her heart on her sleeve, and has so much love to give. Her love has healed Will in a way, but not enough to make him decide to give his life another chance.
I get it. In a way, it’s like Will has decided to do it because he loved Lou so much he didn’t want her and their life by his disability. I’d give him a credit for that.
But then, Lou struggled to “live well” as Will had requested after he was gone. She was lost. She was hurt. And she wondered, did Will really make the best decision to make her life better? Because in After You, she was miserable.
However, Lou loved Will so much that she respected his wishes. She loved him enough that she let him go, even if Will could’ve just decided to live and give life another chance, this time, with someone like Louisa. But he didn’t.
If you hurt me
That’s okay baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won’t ever let you go
And I think it happens: when you meet someone and love them, but they refused to be loved. It is even sadder and hurts way worse than loving someone who can’t love you back.
But when it happens, at least, just like what Ed Sheeran said, there are photographs, where time’s forever frozen still. When you look back at these things, you remember the good times. You remember that very moment.
And then you carry on. Because at the end of the day, you have to. And for someone like Lou, you just don’t stop loving when you have so much love to give.